Summary
➡ The speaker reflects on their struggle with feeling inadequate and anxious while preparing for a meeting and later realizes they had no reason to panic. The conversation shifts to discuss coping with depression, narcissistic abuse, and their spiritual belief about a “Jezebel spirit” causing destructive behavior in people. They emphasize the importance of silencing negative thoughts using scriptures and the power of the spirit, pointing to the importance of regulating ones thought processes through faith. Discussion around battling in a territory of their choice (rather than the devil’s) is also mentioned.
➡ The speaker shares their love for a particular song, expressing gratitude for the patience amid technical issues during a worship session. The speaker also plans to resolve these issues for next week, offers to provide counseling referrals, and expresses their appreciation for the audience’s time.
➡ The text depicts a thoughtful dialogue about battling personal adversities, maintaining faith, staying steadfast in prayer and harnessing divine authority to overcome obstacles. It emphasizes the importance of communal support, forgiveness and staying resilient through struggles. After enduring hardships like dealing with narcissistic abuse, losing a marriage and facing personal dilemmas, the power of spirituality and God’s love is affirmed as a guiding and healing force.
➡ The speaker recounts a religious discussion focused on healing, forgiveness, and overcoming personal struggles through the teachings of the bible, ultimately encouraging others to cast their worries and fears to their ‘king’ or God. Additionally, a man shares his personal experience with drug addiction and spiritual battles, acknowledging God’s promise of safety and an understanding of evil despite his struggles.
➡ The narration shares a personal story of struggle with addiction, spiritual growth, and the attempts to lead a sober life. It emphasizes on the transformative power of faith in God and forgiveness, demonstrating that guidance and eventual relief can be found in the teachings of the Bible and in God’s unerring support.
➡ The text is a conversation taking place during a Bible study, where participants share their experiences and struggles. Jacob, from Sydney, Australia, communicates his personal journey of faith, his struggles with his wife and the local authorities, as well as his seeking support from the group through prayers and counseling.
➡ The author provides support and encouragement to someone going through pain, assuring them of help and connection with other friends. They stress the importance of speaking and acting in ways that honor the Christian faith and provide personal examples of overcoming struggles through prayer and reliance on divine assistance.
➡ The speaker discusses the importance of true connection and fellowship within a religious community, emphasizing the value of active communication and mutual support. The speaker lauds Talia, the group’s effective leader, who, unlike many pastors, takes the time to engage with members personally, making the group feel closer and more connected. The group also discusses overcoming trials and tribulations with faith, assurance, and strength drawn from Christ’s victory over the world. They conclude by reflecting upon a bible verse that symbolizes triumph over adversities.
➡ The speaker underlines the importance of staying vigilant, maintaining strong personal boundaries, and showing wisdom amidst various personal and spiritual attacks. They emphasize the importance of recognizing the schemes of evil forces, maintaining spiritual protection, and learning not to take personal affronts in the face of perceived possession or demonic influence. They take inspiration from the Ephesians 6:12, reminding listeners of the spiritual battle we are embroiled in. They also express gratitude for the supportive community and their willingness to help out others.
➡ The speaker acknowledges struggles they faced, including temptations during a difficult period in their marriage, but found strength in faith and prayer. They find encouragement in community, recognizing familiar faces, offering support to new ones and being appreciative of being part of such a community. They emphasize on the power of prayer, resilience in faith, holding each other accountable and using the Word of God as a defense against negative thoughts and emotions. The speaker expresses gratitude for surviving trials, noting that everyone has a divine purpose. They emphasize the importance of rejecting deceitful thoughts, embracing God’s love, and supporting each other in a community of faith.
Transcript
You. God bless you too. Hey everybody, your family? Sure. Heavenly Father, it is such an honor to know that the words I’m speaking are coming before Your throne, Lord, and we know that that’s only possible because of you sending Your beloved Son, our Savior, and we are dedicating the rest of our lives to serve you wholeheartedly, Lord. We want to bring honor and glory to Your name and we want to help usher others, many others, into the kingdom for Your honor and glory, Lord.
And Lord, we just want to ask that all of us could have supreme focus on what is being said tonight, Lord, and that when your Holy Spirit taps us in our hearts to remember a specific phrase or a few words or a scripture or whatever it may be, Lord, that we would take that away from here as a directive from your throne, Lord, that we are serving the master of the universes, Lord, and we thank you so much for that.
And Lord, we do want to get more love in our heart tonight, every day, every night, for You, Lord Jesus, for You, Heavenly Father, Holy Spirit, that we can say wholeheartedly, we love you above all things, Lord, with our heart, mind, soul and strength, Lord, we thank you for these opportunities to do it. And Lord, we just pray against the enemy right now. Do not be interrupting us, do not be causing thoughts to come our way in Jesus name, do not interfere with this group.
This is Jesus’s group gathering for his honor and praise and we are focused on Him. Thank you Lord. And Lord, we just look forward to how testimonies are going to come from these meetings. Testimonies as to Your greatness and to victory in Your name in many different life situations, Lord, and how we can become more like you, lord, we want to be great imitators of You, Lord. We don’t want to be imitation, but we want to imitate Your goodness, Your love, Your kindness, Lord.
So we look forward to what you’re going to unveil before us tonight, Lord. And our hope would be that Holy Spirit would go to everyone in this group and give them a word to say, a thought, to have a direction to go. And, Lord, we thank you for that. We know you want to tie us together in one accord, that we will love one another as you have loved us, and others will know that we are Yours, Your disciples, by loving one another.
Thank you, thank you, thank you. In your name. Lord Jesus, we pray. Amen it yes. Sure. So just being totally transparent, most of my life I did not know of the scripture talking about it and I certainly did not live a life putting it into use. And it’s been phenomenal coming to realize that almost all of our dying to self and serving the Lord and being his disciples.
And if you love me do my commands has connected in some way, shape, or form to taking our thoughts captive, because we can think about every different thing that may trip us up. And it’s the trip up that we don’t take captive. It’s the trip up that continues to wear us down, get us on that hamster wheel, and gets us to give in. And I realized that even the Lord’s been showing me a lot of things about this and in my life personally, he makes me experience them.
He doesn’t want me just talking about them to people. He wants me to go through the fire and understand what it is. And I’ve been having some issues with my back and my hip and different things and haven’t been sleeping and so on. And so I’m constantly asking the Lord, lord, what do you want me to learn from this? And what he wanted me to learn, I believe, is that when we get hurt and we start having pain, we’re not inviting Satan in because we’re not doing woeful sin, but he’s standing right at that doorway, and he will try to use the avenue of our pain and magnify it.
Why does he do that? He wants to distract us from the Lord Jesus and be in servants. And that’s what’s been the hardest thing to understand. It’s like Lord, I want to serve you wholeheartedly. And when I get this severe pain, it’s hard to do. And over time, he’s continued to comfort me and give me endurance through it and realizing whether he’s preparing me for things that are to come or not.
The fact that I have this understanding now that the enemy will take any avenue he can to distract us, tear us down, and make us less useful for the Kingdom. And so I just want to say that even in our sicknesses and our aches and pains and those kinds of things, if he can come in and sidetrack us through that pain and magnify it and make it seem a lot worse, he’ll do it so we can’t put anything past the sneaky, evil ways of Him.
So that’s just one thing recently that I’ve kind of went through. Yes. Thoughts that was going through my head. Well, okay, from the beginning, it was crazy. I mean, the thoughts that was going through my head was first was Jesus just slowed his truck down. Jesus, don’t let somebody come up this mountain while I’m going down uncontrollably. And I literally just saw myself dying. And I was worried about my wife because the last thing that I thought she heard was, I have no brakes now.
I have no power. Then the phone cut off, and it was just I mean, I literally saw myself dying, like, going off the mountain or a car with a family coming up the mountain and me just hitting them, and they did. But God is I mean, he was there. He was there because I didn’t wreck the truck. Nobody came up the mountain. I had the strength to turn the wheel of that truck with 22 tons on my back, like, going around them S curves and turn the wheels with no power steering to get all the way down to 2 miles down an eight inch grade and pull over.
After I got down where it leveled off, I had enough time to pull over, and as soon as I pulled over off the road, it stopped. I mean, first thing I can do is just get out the truck and just praise his name and just give him thanks. My whole inside, my intestines was like, trembling. It was scary. Yeah. And prior to that, I called the wife and let her know everything was okay, that I was all right because it was right across street from the asphalt plant where I stopped.
And the guy, he told me, the man at the asphalt plant, he was like, well, that mountain is very deadly, because a month before, a month back, a month ago, a tanker, a fuel tanker went off the map. You can actually see when you’re going down the trees that was burnt because he lost control and went off the mountain. We lost his brakes, went off the mountain. As soon as he went off, it blew up.
And like three weeks ago, an 18 year old driving a dump truck went down there and his brakes went out and he went off the mountain. And it was like saying that I was lucky, I’m alive. I’m like, no, I’m blessed. Glory to God. I made it down because it was like, that mountain just killed people. And I was just so scared. It was like the worst thing.
And then the next day, it didn’t hit me until the next day, even though I was praying, thanking him that nobody was coming up the mountain. But the next day, I was just thinking about that and if somebody would have came up, finally would have came up, and I would have hit them and they would have been dead. I was just in tears again, just thanking him, because it was horrible.
It was scary. I’m just trying to think. I think I’ve had those moments. I don’t know if it’s maybe like, for work, sometimes when we have our managers meeting, it’s always online and I have to kind of introduce a new program or speak about something, and then literally in my head, it’s like there’s like a voice saying, oh, you’re going to screw up when you’re speaking. Or it’s like all these different little who do you think you are? I worked hard and obviously the Lord blessed me along my career to get me where I am.
But it’s like those thoughts of inadequacy or I can’t do this or I’m going to mess up, or something comes through my head. But then actually today, this happened where we have a program. And I had to talk about the program. And it’s been a lot of work to get this program up and running. And before I started speaking, it’s like I was getting so anxious. And it’s like, you’re going to mess up.
People are going to question you. People are going to say all these things. You’re going to look like an idiot. Like, literally, this is going through my mind. And then I was like, okay. And I was like, God help. Let God speak through me. Because even I was like, I can’t do this. I don’t want to do this. I’m going to mess up. But then we had the meeting and then there was no questions.
My manager sent me like an instant message saying, thanks, Michelle. Good job. So I was like, why was I panicking before? I don’t understand. But literally in my mind was like, thoughts. And I’m like, these are my thoughts. I knew it was from the enemy, but it was literally like it was almost like, shaw, you’re not going to be able to do this. You’re going to mess up.
You’re not going to make a fool of yourself. Right? Great to see you too. Tally, can you hear me good? Yeah. I was very interested in your topic matter because I understand the Jezebel spirit to be connected with a thing that what you just said. Like, right now, there is an epidemic of depression. I deal with it too. Like yesterday I just had a really bad day. I mean, I’m thinking about just sometimes I just don’t know why.
What do I have to live for? What am I going on for? Sometimes I just have really bad days. I deal with this depression and it comes from I trace it back to abuse, narcissistic, abuse that’s been in my life, people who have just tried to destroy me. And this is the Jezebel spirit. We could see narcissism all through the Bible. Really, the word narcissism is like, that’s the wrong name for it.
It’s Satanism is what it is. Just the behavior attributes of these people is so selfish and so destructive and it causes empathetic people to just kind of fall apart. We can’t understand it. We just can’t process this type of spirit, this Jezebel spirit, and it leads to what you just said, the depression, the hopelessness, the loneliness. Because isolation becomes a thing that happens after abuse. I don’t know if anyone can relate with this, but this is really near and dear to my heart because just in the last five years, my life’s been torn apart due to certain people that came into my life and just behaved in a manner that I see.
The world totally different now. I see evil like I’ve never seen evil before. And I think a lot of people, even though they don’t speak up, I think a lot of people have experienced this. Am I right or wrong? What do you think? Yes, I think that’s one of the biggest dilemmas where we have failed as Christians, as a collective, all Christians myself, extremely, we have failed at taking our thoughts captive.
And now we’re living in a society that has no idea what it even is to take some crazy thought I want to be a cat, I want to be a dog, I want to be whatever. 30, 40 years ago, people would have had thoughts like that where’d that stupid thought come from? I’m not even going to think about that. But there is none of that in our society anymore.
And the Lord wants us to be able to battle all that stuff. It’s just we’ve lost the ability to do that. And I have found it so astounding through going through this process that when he reveals these things to me in one of the greatest ways and you guys probably already do this, but for me, I start reminding Satan that he’s already been made a public spectacle by Jesus rising on the cross, raising from the dead.
And that greater is he that’s in me. And then remind Him also, you’re going to be eternity in the lake of fire forever and ever and ever. But probably one of the most important things is when you get through about of this, because your ability to defend it against it is directly correlated with the amount of scriptures and things that you have in your mind to defend yourself.
Because you think of our armor and what’s our one defensive weapon there? Our offensive weapon is the sword, sword of the spirit, God’s word. And think about when Jesus was being tempted by Satan, he used the word. And so if we do the same thing and then just rejoice in the Lord, when you get that peace, just be so exuberant and thankful for it and eventually the impact of those voices and the intrusion of them, it just about disappears.
He’ll come and check your boundaries and see if you’re doing the right things before the Lord. But it’s astounding how the chaos in our minds, a lot of it is because our thought stream is not being regulated by the Holy Spirit. And if we ask the Holy Spirit to regulate our thought stream and then when something comes in our mind it shouldn’t, we need to stop right then and there.
Stop. No, I’m not thinking about that anymore. I’m not getting on that silly hamster wheel. I’m not going to do it. And the first few times you go through that, there’s some battling going on, but then you’re like what? What was I thinking about for the last 3 hours? I don’t even remember you. Hallelujah. And so it’s an amazing thing. So I just want to encourage everyone in that area.
Amen. Amen. Guys, can you hear me? I called in from my phone, can you hear me? Hopefully now I’ll talk on here. It’ll be laggy, but you got to get away. You got to MacGyver it. Yes. So that’s a really good point, bro, that you mentioned on there. I see someone has their hand up. Val, do you have something to share? And then I want to expand on taking our battles in the territory that we can win in because that’s a big one.
Sometimes what I’ve done and I’ve struggled with depression and anxiety a lot. It has to do with, like my brother Scott said, a lot of trauma. A lot of trauma from when I was being raised right and experiencing in life. And 99% of the time that I drove deep into it to the point that I wouldn’t even want to get out of bed, it was because I was fighting it in the devil’s territory.
So after Sister Val says what she’s going to say briefly, we’ll go ahead and talk about that as well. Sister Val. Go for it. Yeah. I just wanted to kind of piggyback off of what Brother Scott was saying. I just want to say my heart goes out to you. God has set me free. He delivered me from an eight year severe covered narcissistic marriage. So I am walking through my healing and my deliverance.
Four months total. No contact. By God’s, Grace. During this time, I’ve experienced a lot of things. Major spiritual attacks I have never experienced in my life. One of them I wanted to share in particular, it was a week and I was continued just fasting and praying, being before the Lord and just healing. And so it started like there was one day I got up and I just felt so tired.
And it was like intrusive thoughts began to come in, like, aren’t you just tired? Don’t you just want to give up? Why do you have to go through feeling this way? It was like so many thoughts began to just accomp my mind. So I was praying like, Lord, I need you to help me. I don’t know what is going on. Why is this pool here? But Lord, I just kept praying.
Day three, it seemed like it got worse. I was constantly just being attacked in my mind. Intrusive thoughts, regrets. Maybe you need to go back. Maybe it was just so many different things that was happening and it got so heavy. So I pushed myself. I went to work. As time went by and I would say it was about to the third hour, I got heavier. The spirit of Heaviness just came on me, just weighed me down.
And I got up and I walked to my little spot that I like to talk to God in. And I sat down on my little step. When I sat down, all of a sudden the thought came to me, just kill yourself. It was so overwhelming. It was like pure despair. Kill yourself. Just be done with it. You can’t make it. And I remember I just looked up and I said, Father, help me.
Help me, Lord. And when I said, Father, help me, I heard him speak to me. He said, War now, war now. And I opened my mouth and I began to just rebuke and just bind up those spirits in the name of Jesus. And I began to just start doing warfare in prayer. And it wasn’t even a minute that spirit left and I got lighter. I mean, it left, and I was like, Lord, I thank you.
I said, because I’ve never experienced anything like this before. And I was just in gratitude and just thanking him. But it was just in that moment how that spirit just accosted me, trying to get me to just end my life. And it’s really important when these things come, because the enemy always wants to try to he always wants to use our emotions. Because going through the process of when you’re going through no contact, because it’s not just a regular breakup, you have different emotions, different thoughts.
You may have some regrets, you may wonder if you’re making the right decision, then you’re going through the changing of your lifestyle, income issues, just other things. It seems like everything goes on at the same time. But one thing I can say. Just staying in prayer and just opening my mouth more and just using those weapons that the Lord has given me to be able to just know, just take my authority over it, that I don’t have to sit here and take it that God has given me the authority over these demonic spirits, the authority to change my atmosphere.
And from that day forward, anytime I detect anything, god allow me to discern something’s not right. No, we’re going to go ahead and we’re going to pray, and we’re going to attack that right now and just pull that down in the name of Jesus, including those intrusive thoughts. So I just want to share thank you. That’s awesome. Praise the Lord. What a beautiful testimony. This is why this is good that we come together and talk some of these things through, because we’re all going through something in this room, no matter how much we want to try, like, we’re not going through it.
We’re going through something. And something that’s happened in the church lately is that as soon as you’re going through something, people assume that you’re either living in sin or you have 20,000 demons. It could just be that you’re just going through a rough season that God is using to mold you. This is why we have to take time to be with together, help each other out, pray with each other, encourage each other, uplift each other, because times are difficult.
Times are not easy right now, but in Jesus name, awesome things are coming. Trust me on that. Look at this live stream. We went through all sorts of craziness in the beginning, and then I don’t know, the thought came in, just calling on your phone, hey, now we got audio. We’ll figure it out. So glory to Jesus on that jubette. You wanted to share something, you just got to press unmute.
Hi. Blessings to everyone. Thank you for allowing me to share. I’m sorry I sound a little bit stuffy. I’m sick right now. No worries. Can you hear me, brother? Can you guys hear me? We can all hear you. Blessing to have you here. I just want to kind of tag along on the narcissist and the abuse and how that affects. I have to say, unfortunately, because I treasure my marriage, I wanted it, obviously, to work.
I stayed for 30 years. I have four beautiful daughters, four grandbabies, and I never saw my life at 53 as a divorced woman starting over. But I do agree that narcissistic influences come even from your childhood, because I’ve been doing a lot of praying and seeking. I mean, when you want to talk about seeing your whole world crumbling, I was in the place where I was about to graduate from seminary.
I was supposed to be ordained pastor. I was in those places right in a megachurch, all these things, and my house was falling apart. My marriage, like, from not talking to me, but those were little stuff that were happening through the years, but everything just literally got all literally like a cluster. Then my daughter coming out that she was gay, I mean, it was like a heat after a hit after a heat.
And all I can say is after a two year battle and my divorce came out a few months ago, not to take you nor rabbit trail. I’ve been doing a lot of time with the Lord, and one thing I have noticed is that sometimes those behaviors that we allow other people because we tend to be more compassionate, it’s true. Narcissist people can smell those that have that higher tendency to be kind.
You always want to see the best on somebody. You look at the benefit of the doubt. I mean, love thy neighbor as you love yourself and forgive as he has forgiven you. But there is boundaries. And I remember when I had to make a big decision for my safety that I had to separate. I remember struggling with that decision because I know that First Corinthian, chapter seven said to the married woman, don’t separate, but if you do, don’t remarry.
And to the man, don’t divorce. But what I noticed in that thing was I agreed to the parts that I can grow in myself, and the Lord’s been working with me, but unfortunately, my husband never did, and still not to this day. And I look back, and I see, okay, so my mother was a narcissist, and I never got this until a week ago. And then hearing the brother sharing it really made sense because my mother left my dad when I was two years old.
I was born and raised in Puerto Rico, and my mom took my little sister to just visit her mom in New York where she was born and raised. Never came back. My mother never fought for me, never fought for my sister. And I grew up around Santeria Spiritism. I grew up sexually molested. So many crazy stuff that I had to endure that opened other doors and other decisions that I made poor.
But the pattern is this I was always begging for crumbs. And those who are narcissists look for people that beg for crumbs. But until you understand that this is spiritual, that’s when you can lift up your head and know that your help comes from the Lord and that love don’t bring fear. So I’m learning that the Lord loves truly and he loves me. And although I have to learn how to be responsible for my decisions, at the same time I deprave and pray and pray.
I fasted. I pleaded, I cry, ask forgiveness, Lord, show me what’s going on. Am I taking the right decision? Is this my imaginations? Cast down all imaginations and every high and lofty thing that exalted itself because we have to do that. But when I saw how the Lord opened the doors and the way he made my escape out and all the things and where I am today, a year after from nothing to be able to say, I have a shelter, I have a job, I have everything.
And moreover, go to bed feeling love and waking up feeling love. There is no love like the love of Jesus. That is irreplaceable. There is no person on this earth. It doesn’t matter if they told you you were worth nothing. Doesn’t matter if every effort you did they said was not good enough. Like, I heard it even from my grandmother who loved me, who raised me, and she tried her best.
But when you hear all that pattern and I look at it and I see it, I’m like, wow, it’s time to cut that in Jesus name. So from my four daughters, my oldest came back to the Lord. And what I want to tell you is he had nothing to do with me. She had an encounter with Jesus Christ, and now her and I in agreement. And we are praying every day, and we know that the Spirit Jezebel is real.
Because when I went through this storm and I will end it with this so I can respect the time. When I started with this storm, I was accused to be Jesse well possessed. I was, spoke badly in the church as a staff. My reputation was going down the drain. But I said, you know what? I don’t have to defend myself. I don’t have to say nothing, because the one that created me, the one that knows my heart, because I don’t even know my heart, right? That’s what Jeremiah said, right? The heart is wicked above all else.
Who can understand it? Only him, right? He will see me true in this. And brothers and sisters, I can tell you that when you wait on the Lord, he does fight for you. Because the people that spoke bad about me came later and asked forgiveness, and those that didn’t, it’s okay. I don’t have resentment. I actually feel pity for them. I think they’re as victims as I was, although I don’t consider myself a victim anymore because I’m on the winning side.
But let’s pray for our enemies because they’re lost, they hurt us. Because they’re being hurt. They sometimes don’t even know what’s going on with their lives. So we just have to forgive and continue to trust and leave it on the Lord’s hands, because vengeance is the Lord, but it is a real spiritual battle, and we have to put our armor every day. And like Nehemiah said, they didn’t undress, not even for a moment.
With one hand they have a tool, and with the other one they have a weapon while they were building the walls. And that’s how we have to continue to fight because this is not easy until the day we see Jesus Christ. Thank you, brother, for allowing me to no, hey, that’s what we’re here for. We’re here to help each other out and listen to each know one thing I’ve learned from Brother Chris is the importance of listening.
So these Bible studies are a little bit different in which we’re listening to each other more than talking, because these are things that you got to get out of your chest as well. One thing I want to encourage you on, sister, and as you’re going through these healing moments, and I know that you’re doing that already is, at least in my life, one of the things that I’ve worked on is not allowing unforgiveness to bottle up in my heart and not allowing bitterness to get into my heart.
It’s a hard thing with my brother Billy. Many of you have heard the testimony already, so I won’t bore you, but I went through a lot of abuse, and even up to the moment when he was in intensive care and me and my wife arrived because he was dying even there, up to that point, I still had things in my heart here. I’m going to church, I’m doing all the things you got to do.
I’m preaching the gospel. But even there, God still had to work with me there in intensive care, in the intensive care unit. I told my wife, you go first, you go. Because I still needed to because of so many years of lies, of deceptions, of abuse. But I had to confront it that day, and I had to say ephesians 612 we wrestle not against flesh and blood, right? So why am I thinking that he’s my enemy? He’s not my enemy.
It was an entity that spoke through. Him. And yes, he allowed himself to be used, but it’s go time. We got to go preach the gospel. And God healed me. It was a long process, but, sister, I’m praying for you, encourage you, want you to know that Jesus loves you. And I want you to know that through all of these battles that you’re going to go through, just continue to cast down these imaginations and taking them to the word of Jesus Christ.
I do that daily. There are times that I’m sleeping and I have nightmares. Doesn’t happen every day, but it’ll happen every now and then that I’m fighting. My grew up we grew up fist fighting. He was big, too. I got to wake up and say, no. Why did I dream that? May the Lord rebuke that in the name of Jesus. My brother accepted Jesus Christ. He repented. He turned to Jesus Christ.
And you have to take these battles on the ground that is more effective for you and I as brothers and sisters in the Lord. I see that Jason has something to say. I wanted to throw a nugget out there real quick so that we can elaborate as well as we’re having this conversation. Esther, do you guys remember the story of Esther and Esther, 710 Esther seven, four through five.
Esther five, verse four. Where she had an enemy, Esther had an adversary, but she also had a king. Esther had to use wisdom on how to fight that adversary, because if you don’t use wisdom, you can go and engage with the devil in an argument and in a battle that is not conducive towards victory in your life. We have to do like Esther and use wisdom and take these battles to our Heavenly Father.
There’s been times we lived in ghetto parts of Orlando at one point in time, and someone would mess with my kid. She would come to me, and I’d be like, what’s up? What happened? Right? She knows to come to her dad because children know what to do. We have to do the same. In the case of Esther, we see that she in Esther seven, verses four and five.
She talked to the king. She did it, had a table. And she didn’t just argue with Haman. No. She pleaded her case to the know. She said, for we are sold am I and my people to be destroyed, to be slain, and to perish. But if we had been sold for bondmen and bondwomen, I had held my tongue. Although the enemy could not countervail the king’s damage. Then the king Asaris answered and said unto the Esther, the queen, who is he, and where is he, that there’s presume in his heart to do so.
When you take your thoughts captive, you’re taking them to the king. When you take your thoughts captive, you’re now saying, okay, I feel depressed, but why do I feel depressed? I’m taking that to the king. I feel anxious. But why do I feel anxious? I’m taking that to the king. Because you may have an adversary, but you also have a king, and he is an awesome God. He is an awesome father, and he is an awesome king.
But he is giving you that option to take these thoughts captives and take them to your daddy. Esther did that. She had the table set up. She brought her king. She had the enemy. She didn’t talk to the enemy. She played her case to the king. And the king is just he knows what you’re going through. There are many of us, like me, that instead of taking our issues to the king, we’ve taken them directly to the adversary.
And the serpent still speaks. You have no business talking to the serpent or entertaining those thoughts. You got to take those thoughts and say, hey, they’re convincing. They’re convincing. Those are not Godly thoughts. And we take this battle, and now we shift it into a territory where it’s in God’s territory in God’s time. Brother Jason, you have your hand up. I want to make sure you get to speak, brother.
God bless you, brother. What’s going on, brother? Can you hear me? Can you hear me? We can hear you. We can hear you. Okay. I couldn’t hear you guys for a minute. How are you doing, Jason? I want to thank you guys for having this open to the public. That’s pretty cool. Tally, I’ve been watching a lot of your videos for a while, and I agree with most of your, if not all of your teachings and your speakings.
So I appreciate that. Well, this might sound a little crazy to some of you, but maybe not. I mean, I think we all deal with spiritual things. About a decade ago, I’m not going to lie. Like, it started with drugs and stuff. The experience started with that. I’m not going to get too into detail. I’m going to give you a brief summary. I was raised Christian and started to fall away from it, kind of get into some of these weird ideas, like, oh, maybe God represents himself to all these cultures in different ways and just real almost New Agey kind of stuff.
Anyway, so I was a drug addict for a long, long time. Still am in some ways, really. So anyway, it started, and I knew something was different. Something was different. I was just seeing things I shouldn’t be seeing. And I fell asleep for a while, woke up, and I’m like, thank God that’s over because things got like I said, I’m not going to get into too much detail.
So I woke up, and these things are still there, like through any piece of glass I seen. Doesn’t matter if it was computer screen, if it was that, if it was a window, if it was a mirror, I could see things. I don’t know if you guys are familiar with the hat man and shadow people, those types of entities, they all had hats and coats. They’re all different hats and coats, but that was the type of entity it was.
I found out later when I looked into this stuff and all this stuff was still there and it was intelligent interacting with me. And I thought to myself in that moment, am I possessed? And I heard something say full possession and started laughing at me. So I started praying and I heard God speak clear as day. He said, I’m going to show you how evil works. It will get worse before it gets better, but you will be safe in my hands.
Three days later, I thought you said this thing. I could feel it crawling around inside me over a three day period. It’s like a horror movie, like a living horror movie. For three days. This thing broke me down systematically. I could feel it crawling around inside me at the end of those three days, excuse me. This thing was squeezing my heart, letting it go, squeezing my heart, letting it go, and a whole bunch of stuff in between.
We’re not going to get that’s as much as I’m going to get into. So I grabbed my Bible, I laid on my bed. I said, Lord, if I’m going to go tonight, don’t let him take me. And I laid down and like that I fell asleep, I guess, because the next thing I know, I woke up and everything was just white for a second. Like just white one.
And then that lifted and I’m like, I’m alive. Last thing I knew, this thing was about to squeeze my heart to death. It was just unreal. I can’t even describe it. I heard him speak one more time and he said something along the lines that I told you you would be safe in my hands. Now take up that cross and follow me. And I’ve gotten a lot, a lot better since then.
Eventually, over the next couple of years, got done with the hard drug. I said it was probably a decade ago. Got really close to God. For a while after that, I had sleep paralysis and saw these same things, but in the traditional sense that you more hear about them, I guess the closer I got to God, all of that went away eventually. No more sleep paralysis, no more waking up in the middle of night seeing things I shouldn’t see.
And yeah, that was almost a decade ago now and I feel like I’m almost there. I used to drink heavily to snat. I don’t drink heavily anymore. I’m trying to get to where I don’t drink at all. I smoke. It’s a little bit of pop before bed. I’m trying to put that down and just take those final steps, just shut those last couple of doors. I doubt it.
So that’s my story. Thank you for opening up about it. I promise you. I’m not insane right now. That actually happened. Question for you, bro. What’s holding you back from taking that final step? I know I’ve been there before where I’m at a stage where I want to make that it’s like jump rope, right? You know what you have to do, because quite honestly, when we ask God and we say, God convict me, he’s always going to tell you, but what’s holding you back? Honestly, that’s a good question.
I ask myself that same question quite a bit, to be honest with you. And I’m not quite sure. Fear. Fear is something I’m not even sure what it is. Brother Chris, can you chime in being anxious all the time? I want you to hear from the Chris. Hear me okay. Yeah. You guys can hear me, right? Yes, sir. Okay. A couple of different things came to my mind, listened to your talk, and I reflect back on my life at how many years of utter failure because of selfishness and pride and all that, and doing things the Lord didn’t want me to do.
Drugs, drinking, all the stuff. And it came to a very simple answer from the Lord. I promised you in my Word, if you look for the way of escape, there will be one every time. How many of us, when we’re in these temptations and know and I can remember many times rehearsing that verse, and my attention will be drawn to the sin. And I’d be like, no. Then I would go do the sin.
Then next time it’d be drawn more to the Lord. Then I go to the sin. Well, then, you know what? The tide turned, and I started going to the Lord and then going to the Lord, going to the Lord. And eventually there was that way of escape every time. And that’s what we can count on. His word is absolutely, 100% reliable. And when we realize that, you know what I don’t ever remember asking when I was in the middle of temptation, lord, where’s a way of escape? And even now, sometimes I forget that.
But I’ve tried to have it drilled into me so deep that it’s just part of my natural way of understanding through the Lord. And the one thing I do want to share too, also, because I think there’s probably some struggles amongst this group with unforgiveness towards those that have done bad things towards you. And it’s hard to navigate those waters. When I had a few different situations in my life, I used to believe, can I think about this person and not have that kind of feeling? That was like the first step.
Can I even do that? And most of the time, the answer was no. Well, once I thought I was getting a little bit beyond that, could I pray for that person? Okay. And you get to the point where you can pray for them, but you’re still not there yet because you still think about that person you’re like and the enemy is right there with the whole bushel load of memories to throw at you and he’s hoping that one of them will you know, I was struggling with that.
And the Lord gave me this one day. I was driving down the road and I saw in my mind for a brief instant the Lord Jesus with this beautiful smile just looking at me and feeling this immense love. And I look over to my side and my wife Heidi’s there. I’m thinking, wow, Lord, the love I have in this world for her, the love I have for you that I’m going to be in someday, how wonderful.
I don’t even know how I can experience more love than this. Well, then he challenged me. He says, OK, Chris, I want you to think of the people that have done the most wrong to you in your life and put them in the place of your wife. And I expect you to have the same feeling about them as you do about her. I was like, Whoa, that’s a big challenge right there.
It was a few weeks of me just thinking about it, like, I don’t know. But then I started doing it and it maybe took six weeks or so, but these people who I thought I’d forgiven because I was able to pray for them. And then one of the other big tells is, could you actually be happy if that person won the lotto or had the greatest thing happen to them? Could you be happy for that person? And so if any of you are struggling in those areas, I just wanted to let you know how the Lord helped me.
And I think the final thing where imagine whatever person and what the Lord put in my mind is, you don’t know what I’ve been doing in that person’s heart for the last five years that you saw them. You don’t know how they’re serving me. You don’t know the number of tears that they’ve weeped on the pillow, feeling bad about how the people they hurt. And I don’t know.
So what right would I have to come against that person, my thoughts, when the Lord could have healed them and is bringing them into the kingdom? So I was very thankful that he showed that to me. Amen. Amen, brother. I know that firsthand with my brother and with many other individuals that sometimes you have even friendships that sometimes are even stronger than family. And people can do certain things and act in a certain way and it can hurt in a very difficult way.
But like you said when you said that Bible verse where there has no temptation taking you, but such as is common to man, but God is faithful. But God is faithful. So God’s not denying that that temptation is going to come, but God’s just telling you he’s faithful who will not suffer you to be tempted above that ye are able, but with will, the temptation also make a way of escape.
But God is faithful. I remember my brother when he was my brother was he was raped when he was little. He was a child. He was raped. And what happened with him is well, a lot of things happened growing up, but long story short, he ended up in sodomy himself and so forth. We were praying for him to be delivered. We’re praying for him to be set free.
And it was really hard because to us, it wasn’t happening fast enough. This and that and the other. But upon talking to him in that bed in ICU when they had disconnected all the machines and they said he was going to die, he was telling me how God had been working on him that whole year and a half and that he wasn’t sleeping with his boyfriend anymore. He had actually built another room so his boyfriend can sleep in another room, and he slept in a different room.
And he was praying and trying to seek God and doing this and the other. And ultimately, it came to the point where he had to fully surrender to God. And I’ll tell you all in this room that if you’re dealing with unforgiveness, if you’re dealing with anxiety, you’re dealing with worry, you’re dealing with anything, that God is faithful, and that’s not discounting your wounds, and that’s not discounting your hurts.
But I’m just reminding you that what you went know what Brother Ernest went through with that car situation, that truck situation, what Brother Scott went through, what Sister Michelle has gone through, what sister all the sisters here that have shared what she went through, god is going to use that to reach many people. And you’re going to be shocked that God is one day going to send someone your way for you to be able to preach the gospel to that has gone through what you’re going through.
And you’re going to be able to reach them because the devil meant a lot of these things to destroy you. But God’s going to use them in his time. It’s going to be beautiful. It’s going to be beautiful. So get ready and get prepared. And this is why we do these Bible studies, so that we can talk with each other, so that we can reason with each other.
If you notice, at no point in time anyone has shared anything, we haven’t jumped on them and, you know, do this. No, we’re listening. We’re talking to each other. We’re helping each other. All right, we got Jacob. Jacob, I see your hands up. Oh, and brother Ernest as well. Brother Ernest, let Jacob go, and then I’ll put you on there. All right. Go ahead, Jacob. Peace upon you all.
I don’t know if you can hear me. Well, I just thank Heavenly Father that I can join. I’m here in Sydney, Australia. Can you hear me? Yeah, we can hear you. We can hear you from Australia. That’s awesome. Okay, if I can I just want to pray. I just invite our high priest, the king of glory, our savior, our kingsman, our redeemer, the one who laid down his life.
I ask him to bear witness. I call upon his holy spirit to be in our midst. And I only desire that the will of our heavenly father, the sovereign, creator of all time, space, and matter, that I am worthy enough to fulfill his will and his purpose that he has. And I just want to lift up everyone here in this room. And I pray for every mother, brother, and sister, all who are young and old, small and great, near and far.
And I just pray true peace within every temple house and every member that are united as one new man in our Savior, our Kinsman, our Redeemer, who is the Lamb and the living word in Messiah as one new Adam. I just want to thank you, father, for all the true laborers in the vineyard, for brother naftali, and for all that you entrust them and establish a thin and narrow path of righteousness for your name’s sake.
May you please grant us the strength to endure to the end and to be counted worthy to be called by your name, to be worthy to stand at your loving right hand. And I just want to speak, and I consider everyone here, my brothers and my sisters in the messiah. And I just want to share that I am fully surrendered to our savior, and I’m going through very difficult times, and I just want to look past that.
I want to look upon the things above and focus on the one that can keep me in his perfect peace. And I’ve been married for 33 years. We’ve been blessed by our heavenly father and by our savior. We have five children and three grandchildren, and I was pulled out from the darkness back in about 2010, coming to 2014, a lot of the scriptures had come alive for me.
A lot of things about Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob, about Israel, about the messiah, how he opened the mind of their understanding to understand all these things that are written, and that he is the chief cornerstone, and we are just living stones built upon the chief cornerstone, and we are the sheep of his flock. He’s our faithful witness and our great shepherd. And I was sharing all this with my wife, and she was very angry with me.
And always since then has been provoking me, calling me a hypocrite, calling me. And then other things started to come to my attention. I only pray that I can see through the eyes of our savior and hear from his ears. I don’t want to lean on my own strength and my own understanding. I consider myself that I’m already beheaded and count all things as naught that I may run in the one who is the Author, Victor, the Finisher and the Defender of our faith.
I know that he is faithful and true, but there are a few things that he are deep within my heart, within my soul. I feel that there’s some very deep unrighteousness that has transpired, say, between my wife and my eldest son. And I have spoken about it to them. And I’ve just said, I surrender everything to Heavenly Father. But yeah, I’m really lost for words. I just grateful for this moment.
I feel, even when I want to pray, I heard, Brother Chris, to love your wife. I know this is very important, this is a very integral part walk especially. I can hold my peace with anyone. Even if people offend me or if I say I’m witnessing or giving out tracks on the street and someone spits at me or whatever, I can’t count that as a loss. I don’t seek to retaliate repay evil for evil.
I can walk away even if someone insults me or offends me, because I know the one who created the eyes he really sees. And I know that we’re going to give an account. And I pray that Heavenly Father just hold nothing against anyone that has done anything to me. And as I speak these things, I don’t understand why I’m feeling very grieved. We will sit in the car together and I’ll just feel this great pain within me.
I feel this great anxiety rush over me when I sit with my wife. And every time, basically 90%, 95% of the time when we come into a conversation, she’s always defensive and I have to repent. I repent for having a conversation with you. I apologize because I see you’re offended and you can’t have a conversation. You can’t hear. If I believe now the scriptures that I am the head and my wife, I don’t put it under me.
I put her beside me. I seek to edify the body of Christ. I’m seeking just to do what is right, what I know in my heart, the Father has put in my heart. And truly, when you have to repent every conversation and you have to just walk away like I’m right now in a camp. I have a campervan right out the front of the house. I’ve been sleeping there for the last two weeks or so, maybe two months.
Sorry. Yeah. During COVID here in 2020, I had the police come threatening me, to smash my head on the asphalt, to taser me and to shoot me. I retaliated in no way whatsoever to them. I just asked them, I said to them, that’s a big ambition, how can you do that? Why do you think that that is right? I said, I’m not causing you any violence, I’m not causing you any harm.
And my wife said to me that she’s going to put me inside in a mental home, like in a psychiatric thing. Two days after that, when the police came, it was midnight, and there was a curfew that you couldn’t come out outside the house, and they were telling me to get outside to get inside the house. So I’m sorry if I’m going a bit too long. I really do apologize.
Stop apologizing, brother. You break my heart to see that you’re going through this, and also for her, too, because both of you are going through it. And I can tell you that it’s one of the hardest things to experience when there’s discord of any type in your house. One thing I want to offer for you ahead of time, before we even talk, is if you need any type of counseling, bro, by brothers or sisters in the Lord who are married and can understand it, brother Chris and his wife, I’ll be more than happy to help know for free.
There’s no cost or anything like that. We don’t have an email set up for that yet, but email me at brothernettali@gmail. com and we’ll coordinate it so that this way we can set up a zoom, a private so for you, for Heidi, for Chris, and even your wife, so that we can help out as best as we can, right. Also, Ernest and his wife have experience in their own life that they can also share as well.
I just don’t want you to think that you don’t have support, okay? And it’s amazing how we ended up with forgiveness, talking about unforgiveness and forgiveness, but, brother, how are you? Are you okay? Is there anyone in Australia that we can call that family member, friends, anyone that can I wish I could virtually hug you, man. It’s kind of hard from here, but if you know of anyone over there that we can reach out to as well, they can take you a warm meal, they can reach out to you.
Please reach out to me at Brothernatalia@gmail. com, because there’s people in Australia that we can connect with, and you’re not don’t feel I know what it’s like to feel that defeated, bro. Okay, but you have Jesus Christ with you, brother. All right? And, man, I wish I had more words to give you. It’s just my heart’s breaking for the fact that you’re in a camper, man. You know what I’m saying? Chris, Heidi, can you share anything before we go to Ernest? Well, I appreciate you sharing and being about something that’s very painful, and as Tay said that Chris and I would be available, and we actually do have an Aussie friend.
I don’t know when he’ll be returning into the area, but I encourage you to give that information to Tally, and then we could perhaps even arrange something for somebody to be on your soil to do a shout out with you. And he’s a great mate, and he loves the Lord, so I encourage you to do that. And then also know that Chris and I will be praying for you as well and waiting for you to reach out.
Just a word of encouragement for you is that we have the opportunity to learn the most when the situations are the most difficult. So just keep that in mind that what the Lord will have you learn through this will be a mighty testimony that will be used for someone else. And he’s with you. He’s with all of us. And we have that confidence to know that he is with us.
I believe that. I know that I’ve been singing a new song since he called me. From the darkness, that I bind the whole harvest of the enemy, from the first Adam to the last Adam and Lucid, from death to life, through the stake, through the cross, through the tree, as the kingdoms of this world become the kingdom of our Father and of His Messiah, the precious Lamb who paid the price.
And he is our redeemer, our kingsman. And these are the things where it breaks our heart hearing about it. But just know that these are what these Tuesday Bible studies are about. They’re more of just us coming together and talking through things. One thing I do want to encourage you, and this is something that as a person who’s been married for 20 plus years, I know that without my wife, I can’t do this.
There’s no way is whenever you’re going to respond or whenever you’re going to speak, if what you’re going to say will not glorify your Father, which is in heaven, try to bite that tongue real hard. It’s going to hurt. It’ll make you think of something. But like Matthew 516, let your light so shine before men that they may see your good works and glorify your Father, which is in heaven.
I had to learn in my life to bite my tongue, because quite often we talked about casting down imaginations. Some of these imaginations will rationalize a bad response, will rationalize certain things for you to say and act on, which, when we look at it a week or two later, that didn’t glorify the Heavenly Father. We could even use Scriptures to try to justify certain things. Make sure that before you talk, okay? You’re probably the closest thing to a Bible that she’s seen, right? So make sure that as you talk, as you walk, as you act, free yourself from all that beat of bitterness unforgiveness in the name of Jesus Christ.
Just make sure that every action glorifies the Heavenly Father, it’s going to still hurt, because people will say what they say and act how they act. But you can only control what you can control. But I promise you this, brother, when you control what you can control, it’s going to pay off. All right? So we love you, bro. You’re not alone, all right? We’re here for you. You’re not alone, okay? Every Tuesday.
Pass. On by here, brotherneftalia@gmail. com. Write me. We’ll find people in Australia to connect with you. We’ll find you some counseling as well. And we love you. All right? We love you. All of us. Love you. Okay, brother. Love you more, man. Just thank you. I just want everyone to be strengthened by his spirit, and may he give us the strength just to endure to the end. Forgive if I’ve said anything out of place, I don’t know.
That’s what we’re here to talk to each other. If we don’t talk to each other, who are we going to talk to? The wall? We got to talk to each other. That’s what we’re here to we’re here to help each other out. That’s why we wanted to start these interactive Bible studies so that we can talk and see how we can help each other. Brother Ernest, you’ve been so patient.
And then we’re going to go to the brother, to the right of him as well. And Jacob, I’m expecting your email. Brother naphtali@gmail. com. All right. Go ahead, Ernest. At first, I just want to tell Brother Jacob that our hearts go out. My wife and I will keep him in our prayers and definitely for healing and for definitely let the Lord will be done in the situation, have the Lord see fit.
You will get the blessing, and you will get healed from that situation, and a breakthrough will be coming. But what I want to say two things I want to say well, the one thing about the Jezebel Spirit was when I was going down that mountain, devil was speaking in my ear, saying, you fit to die. You’re going to die. And I mean, I literally saw myself dying, but I just kept saying, Lord Jesus, slow this truck down.
And he did. And then eventually the voices went away, but that was that. And for Jason, I want to talk to him about that as well, because I went through all that as well as the sleep apnea, I guess that’s what they call it. I didn’t know what paralysis okay, whatever that is. I didn’t know the name of it. All. I knew I was fighting Satan, and I was pretty much telling my wife because I was sleep, but I wasn’t was.
I was telling my wife to wake me up, but she just said, I don’t think I was saying and I was saying, no, I’m saying wake me up. And that went on for a while. I mean, I haven’t had an episode in a while because I’ve learned how to pray and stuff. But it’s like when I first started my walk with Christ and started my relationship with Him, that’s when he bombards you with all of that.
And for us, like the alcohol and drugs, I had a half a gallon a day habit, and I was a real bad pothead cocaine. I was a bad man. I mean, that’s just a little bit. We’re talking about what he was doing. And the question was said, what is like stopping it? He was like just probably fear. Like he’s scared. And I was there too. But it took for me and this what worked for me.
I mean, it may not work for everybody else. So when you mean business with the Lord, when you really mean business with him, he will mean business with you. So what I did, I just prayed. I mean pray earnestly. And I wanted to change because I was scared of not being the man that I wanted to be and scared of being the man that I know who God knew that I was.
So that’s where that fear come in at. Because Satan will play their role. Yeah. And losing my wife, I’m going to get held to say something one of these days. And that’s what it is. Because Satan know who you are in Christ and he will put that fear in us, for us not to be who we want to be because we need to die to self daily. But what I did, and it worked for me, I literally just prayed because deep down inside I wanted change.
And I knew I couldn’t do it for myself. I couldn’t do it myself. So I just prayed earnestly for him, to him to just take the taste out. If it’s your will, take this out. And I know this is your will, just take the taste out of my mouth. I don’t want the taste in my mouth no more. And I promise you, it literally happened overnight. Because the next day I got up, I wanted to go to the store to go get me another bottle or whatever.
My stomach started turning like as I was going to the store. So I was like I was getting sick. So I was like, okay, so I bypassed the store. When I bypassed a liquor joint, my stomach stopped hurting. I felt better. So I’m like, okay, well, I know what this is. I feel better now. When I leave, I’m going to go back and get and on my way back, when I got closer, the closer I got, the better it started hurting.
So I remembered what I prayed for and I was like, okay, I see where this is at. And then so I didn’t. And the taste is literally gone. Literally gone. I don’t have no cravings for none of that no more. And it’s awesome because while I was praying, I literally heard him say that I love you and come back before it’s too late. Because like I say, there’s always a cutting off time.
You can run for so long until he literally tell you, okay, you run for us, you can run. You either come to me, I’m just going to hand you over. So like I say, if you really mean business with him, he will mean business with you. We have to die to self daily, not want what our flesh want, because we are always at war with our flesh every day.
And that just helped me to just stay in prayer. Just keep him first in your life and just die to self. If your flesh want it, obviously it ain’t good for you. That’s it. Sorry. Awesome. No, that’s awesome, brother. And I’ve seen your growth. I’ve seen your maturity, your wife’s maturity. I’ve known you for several years and tell you that I’m very proud of you, brother. Very proud of you, brother.
All right. And tell your wife that it’s all good. I was also really shy on the mic, too, so it’s all good. Tell her we love her a lot. She’s awesome. God bless you, sister. I just want to say thank you, man, for all that. I appreciate you, and yeah, I just need some prayers, and I’ll take these last steps. I want to do some damage to the kingdom of darkness.
I want revenge. Hallelujah. That’s awesome. Definitely be praying for you, brother. We love you, man. We got a brother here. It says iPhone nine. He’s the iPhone nine. Livening color. How are you doing, man? I don’t hear you yet, but if you unmute yourself, you pressed unmute. There you go. Let me see. I can probably unmute you. Let me see. I don’t know how to unmute you. There should be a mute button.
Is it working now? Okay. I didn’t know it’s an iPhone nine. Hey, what’s up, brother? Talia, it’s Shane. I just want to say something real quick. Usually I’m not shy, but I’m a little shy now, but I’ll keep it quick. I just want to thank this group, brother, because I’ve been saved, I think, about 20 years now, and it’s hard to find a good church, and this is a great Bible study.
And again, I’m not using this as flattery or it’s all pure intentions, but usually the reason the problem going to church is you go there, you listen to a sermon, and that’s it. The pastor, he doesn’t know his sheep, right? It’s too big or doesn’t know his sheep. But Tally, I know you don’t call yourself a pastor, but you do know your mean. I know you don’t want to hear this, but you’re a semi celebrity YouTuber, okay? And you take the time I don’t like saying this because I don’t want to sound fake, but you take the time to make sure you get to the messages.
So I’ve been following you gosh, man, for about ten years, and you really care. But that’s the problem, bro. The problem with most churches are is the pastors are lukewarm. They don’t call you when there’s an issue. They don’t take it seriously. I’m not blaming everything on the pastors either. It also takes the congregation, right? So people are like, oh, why don’t you come to church? I’m like, well, you go there, you hear a message, and that’s it.
The pastor doesn’t talk to you, and it’s kind of like so with this, at least even with Bible study, you go there, you can’t even ask questions. So here you could actually talk, and it’s real fellowship. So, again, I just wanted to say that, man, I’ve been looking for this, and I’m not a Jehovah’s Witness, but they’re the only people that actually spend time and talk to their congregation that’s not know Christendom.
They don’t do that. So that was the thing. I was just praying to God. I said, God, I’m lost. I need someone to help me once in a while. And the stuff that Tally talks about in his YouTube videos, I could talk to him. I could talk to me because it’s the same theology, it’s the same train of thought. So that way, when he’s talking to me about, I don’t know, not taking things naturally, I could relate with them, and I could ask him the questions I need.
So hopefully I’m not talking too much. Tally but this is what I’ve been praying for, bro. Like, someone you could actually talk to, someone that’s not too busy. We could actually talk together. So I’ve been looking for that, and I’m glad that because you have a lot of work to do, bro. All of us, even everybody on this thing, and you guys are taking time to pray. And this is what church is about, not modern day 19th century church where you go there, you listen, you leave.
And it’s kind of like a work salvation, right? With those churches, like, we’ll come to the functions, and then maybe I’ll call you. It’s like, no, but with Tally, you don’t even know me. I tell him I have a problem, he doesn’t even ask. He calls me again, I’m not trying to flatter you. I’m just being honest with you, bro. That’s just how it is. Tally I said, I need help call you, brother.
You’re my brother, man. And you call what to do, man? You’re my brother. I love you. They don’t do that at churches. So that’s why this church, what we have right now, church I don’t know who you guys are, but I’m Shane. If you guys need me, I’ll do my best. That’s it. And this is what church is. And this is why churches fall, because this love is not there.
It’s the more like retail love, right? Hey, Jim Bob. Come to service, and then you don’t hear from know all week. Oh, hey, I caught that message. And then you don’t hear from and you tell them like, something’s wrong. Okay, well, a week from Tuesday, can I call you then? Can we talk then, buddy? And they don’t call you, so then you give up. But with Tally, I told him I had an issue.
Boom. He called me. Then I felt like, okay, maybe the church is still alive. Maybe they’re out there, and that’s it. I’m done babbling on, bro. Everybody my brother, man, I had to say it. Anyway. Glory to Jesus Christ. And you know, I got your back, man. And I appreciate your patience too, man, because not everyone’s patient like you. And glory to Jesus Christ and all things. This is why we want to do these Tuesday Bible studies, because I think that we need an opportunity to talk.
We do. We don’t have that enough. And I love you guys a lot. I’m no better than any of you guys a lot. I’m just grateful to all of you. We’ve talked today about a lot of things. We’ve talked about unforgiveness casting down imaginations. We’ve talked about so many different things. But before we leave, we have to end with a positive note, even though everything was positive. But there’s one thing that I remind my house every night of my daughter, my wife, that is that there’s one who said that he has overcome the world, right? And I try to end things on always reminding us of something epic and awesome that happened either this day, this week, this month, and remembering that John 1633 where it says these things, I have spoken unto you that in me ye might have peace in the world, ye shall have tribulations, but be of good cheer.
I have overcome the world. You have no idea the joy that I have in seeing Scott here. You guys do not understand this brother, the influence that he’s had on me and many other people on YouTube. He always pushed the level of what you could do on videos for free. He always pushed it just when you thought you got to a point where you could because I’m always trying to edify people and get better and get better and get better to provide content.
And this brother, he really always took it to the next level and he still is. And the enemy tried to destroy this. Um, so him being here, falling world films, my brother Tim, him being here as well, these are people are taking of your know, Sister April. She’s watching us from Facebook right now. Hello, Sister April, brother Scotty, if you can get on Mac, I don’t want to put you on the spot here, but on that Bible verse of I have overcome the world if I was going to ask and this I’ll get from Chris, because Chris always asks these questions to people.
But if you were going to think of one thing that has happened this year that makes you think of that, that there is one that has overcome the world, what would you think of John 1633? These things I have spoken unto you that in me ye might have peace in the world, ye shall have tribulation, but be of good cheer. I have overcome the world. I think this is speaking of Jesus overcoming.
Well, he’s prophesying as well. So he’s basically saying he’s going to defeat death. And he’s overcoming I don’t want to get too deep into this, but I have an understanding of what the world is in the New Testament, and it has to do with in the same way like Disney World. Walt Disney, when he was young, he created a cast of characters, mickey Mouse and all these little guys that turned into an entire system, which is called Disney World.
But really it’s all about his creation of the world. In a lot of scriptures that I see, the world is actually the House of Israel. It’s kind of like Jacob world. And I think what he’s talking about here is that he’s overcoming basically the law keeping, hypocritical synagogue of Satan. I didn’t want to get too deep in that, but I would answer that probably in a way that applies differently because that’s what he did overcome.
He overcome them as well as Satan himself. But yeah, we have to keep our eyes on Christ. It’s really difficult. There’s a lot of great testimonies tonight about how Satan seems to he just really comes after people, and he comes after those of us who are unaware of evil. He comes after good people. He comes know, they say that the good die young. They say that the good guys finish last.
And I think in the last couple years, I really started to understand those things. It’s because we’re naive. A lot of times we’re unprotected. We don’t recognize. We don’t have our guard up. A lot of times we might not have strong boundaries because we just want to live and let live, but the enemy wants to live and let die. It’s this that I think we need to overcome, I think.
Be aware of the enemy’s schemes and tactics. He roams around like a lion seeking whom he might devour, and he comes after those of us who are usually unprepared. And I think that’s a big thing that I have had to learn in my testimony just in the last couple of years. I was just very way too nice to people. In a way, I would let people come into my life and I didn’t recognize red flags.
Red flags do not turn green. These are not lights. They’re flags. And sometimes it’s a little too late. You can get somebody in your life that pretends to have good intentions towards you, and then all of a sudden the mask falls off and they’re completely evil. Matter of fact, there’s somebody that was in my life that I talked to that in an argument. I saw the eyes turn black, and now we’re getting into like La Marzuli territory.
But I really believe that I’ve talked to a person that had demons in them, and this is what’s going I see the world very differently now, and I think it’s just really wise for us to know that that is the situation that we’re living in. It really is an ephesians. Six battle of the principalities and powers of heavenly places. Tally, you’ve made a lot of videos about this.
You seem to be very connected to that reality. And I think I might have been blowing it off a little bit until it really came to my front door in the last couple of years because it’s true. What you’ve been saying is true. This is a battle of the spirit and I think it’d be wise if we all just really protected ourselves. That’s how I would answer that.
Long winded. That’s awesome. I’m so proud of you, Scott. Proud of you. Thank you for what you’ve done for so many of us. You’ve gone through a very fair share of battles, but I just want to say thank you. Thank you for what you’ve done for a lot of us in the name of Jesus Christ. And one of the things that I did to pay the bills for a long time, right, was work at a call center.
And slowly but surely I kept on going up the ladder within that. But it’s never changed in that. What I do professionally for a living is what some people would say is you get verbal lashings all day long. So taking escalations over 500 a week, right, you get to experience kind of like what you just said, Scotty, where even in face to face, I’ve been in moments where face to face you’re with a person but the lights are on but no one’s home.
There’s something happening. I got Ephesians 612 on my phone. When we wrestle not against flesh and blood, I’m not going to take this personal. I’m going to pull the full armor of God. These are entities that there are people walking around us and I’ll be honest with you, that they are full blown possessed and you can see it in some people. And like Scotty says, you have to use wisdom.
It can’t just be that you allow every person to just willynilly just show mean you wouldn’t do that in your house. If someone was a burglar know if the alarm sounds, listen to the Holy Spirit. Anytime I’ve fallen victim to anything even close to it has been because I did not listen to the holy Spirit. Ephesians 612. I mean, I’ve had moments where there are people like this close to my face and I got to think it through, calm it down.
Escalation after escalation, call after call after call after call after call. I hope you die, I hope you this, I hope you that, I hope the other. And I just have to continuously I got to pay the bills at home so I can’t lash out. But what it did make me see is what Scott is saying. There are people out there that man, the devil will use as a tool.
So you got to use wisdom. You got to lose knowledge. Brother Chris and sister Heidi, they’ve been helping me in terms of being able to help out the community more and opening up and helping out people in the community with little grocery bags and things like that. And even in doing such a nice, gentle aspect, people get mad. I’ve had moments where it’s Thanksgiving happening. I’ll give them a bag with food and they’re like I’m like, Whoa, come down, dude.
I’m just trying to help you, man. Relax. Breathe for a moment. But I got to then say, you know what? I can’t take it personal. It’s not that person. It’s whatever is inside that person. But I have to be cautious to expose myself to because the devil will use that to get you to react. Because some of these people will want to put you in a position that you react the day they want you to react.
So that then they can point a finger at you and say, see what he did? It’s like that. So ephesians 612. We wrestle not against flesh and blood. Don’t take things personally. Be very cautious out there. Test all things. Test the spirits. I’ve had witches that want to pray for the family, and I’ve had moments like that in some Pentecostal churches that I’ve gone to that I’ve had moments where a lady is adamant that she has to pray for my wife as an example, or adamant that she has to do this.
Slow down for a moment. I don’t even know you. Calm down. Why are you so ready? Why are you getting so hostile? And you usually know what you’re dealing with when the person gets easily offended. When the person gets easily offended. Now go lay hands on your own self, my friend. You know what I mean? So you got to be really wise because times are crazy. Times are crazy.
But brother Scott, I’m proud of you. I love you, and I thank you for being so kind to even pass on by here and sharing some of your testimony, man. God is awesome. God is awesome. We have about 1314 minutes left. Brother Chris, anything you have in your heart to share? Well, I just want everyone to know that my wife and I have a pretty flexible schedule. So Tally and I had talked from the beginning that as these groups grow, if we need to start some at different times to accommodate different time zones, we certainly are willing and look forward, and we’ll be very pleasing to actually do that with more people, and that if someone needs to talk to my wife or me separately, we’re available.
And we’re going to get set up with our emails and stuff, too. But until that happens, just let Talia know and he can get a hold of us. And just one thing I want to say, we’ve all experienced this, and we’ve experienced some pretty when we became serious Christians, the people that hurt us the most were those that called themselves Christians, and it really was pretty painful to go through.
But the Lord revealed in my heart that I made a big mistake by thinking that when someone tells me they love me, that they’re telling me that they love me as the Father loves me. And it’s not that’s fake human love that is worthless practically, and that is based on situations and situations alone. And I can remember after a length of time where I couldn’t even tell people I love you.
I would tell them I love you in transition because I’m not going to use that word anymore until I understand more what eternal love is. So when I say that to someone, they can realize that this goes beyond who I am as a person and into who I am in Christ. And so it was a real interesting thing. So I just want to encourage all of you to have the Lord show that in different people’s lives.
Who’s coming to you in a fake love, who’s coming to you in a sincere love. I wanted to say, too, it’s wonderful to see some familiar names and faces from last week. I thought I saw Solita up there and some others. So a shout out to those that have returned from last had I did have a thought in regards to Jacob, and there was a time that Chris and I weren’t getting along as well.
We’ve been married almost 35 years and it was kind of a dark time, lonely time, confusing time. And I feel like there were whisperings of things that were trying to be temptation. And one of the whispers I heard, there were a couple, one was, why don’t you just start drinking? That was one. And another was just, nobody’s going to miss you. They love them more. In other words, my responsibilities that I had, this voice was almost like, somebody else can do that better than you.
And they wouldn’t have been responsibilities in a way, in my right mind would want somebody else to do. And so in the Bible, it does talk about coming to your senses. And I think that is a very worthy thing in God’s will to pray for. Lord, may I come to my senses and fully sense all that you are. And the one individual I think Jubette had said she heard a voice saying it was war.
And that is truly what I got, like a righteous anger, because it’s just what the enemy would want me to do. Those kinds of things as far as start to drink, start to think that I’m worthless. And so it’s like, all right, you have been poking enemy me to want to do something against my Father in heaven. I’ve had enough. And I think it comes to a point where you’ve just plain had enough of it.
And when you cry out to the Lord and it’s like, all right, I am going to fight back. All right, who’s the top five people I know that aren’t saved and just start praying for them and start going after that kingdom and just praising the Lord. I found out just as many of you have, when you start praising the Lord, when praise is high, the enemy does not like it.
When we praise our King of Kings and our Lord of Lords, and then praying for those that are lost, those that are struggling that we know have that praise high, have Thanksgiving high. And that acknowledgment and the shouting, because it does seem loud at times and trying to be convincing, then it goes to a whisper and then it eventually just goes away. So I found that to be the case and I didn’t give into the drinking and I didn’t give into trying to harm myself.
And there was great victory in that and it certainly became less and less knocking at the door simply because it was afraid to come in my yard anymore. And yeah, I encourage any of you in that way. That is awesome. That is awesome. I am so grateful to all of you. I know that it may seem like crazy, but it’s hard to get people in a room and just talk and be focused on helping each other.
So for me, this is a blessing. This is new for me, as you understand, we had a lot of technological issues, but we pushed through, we navigated through them. As Sister Heidi said, we have some faces here that came from last week and just want to say thank you, Sister Lynette. God bless you. Thank you for being here. Travis, Renee, Paige, Mia, Rich, Tiana, Katina. Jeremy is on the camera.
God bless you, Sister serita. Let me see who else is here. Just wanted you to know that anytime you need anything, family, please know that all you have to do is either hit us up on the website Cfgministries. com, there’s a community tab there. Know that all you have to do is reach out. We’ll help you out. Okay. Or soon we’re going to set up another inbox which is going to be set up for counseling.
So if you need counseling going to be free, confidential. We just want to do our part to give you an opportunity while you find the local assembly. I hope you find one, but until then, we just want to give you that opportunity. Would you guys mind if we pray before we close it out? If we can pray, and I know I’ve said this already, but thank you for being patient with me.
Thank you for holding me accountable and thank you for praying for each other and for really meaning know next Tuesday we’ll be here back again and soon we hope to add more Bible studies that are like this that we can just talk and be open with each other. All right? So let’s pray. Heavenly Father, we want to thank you for your dear Son Jesus Christ. We. Want to thank you for all that you’ve done for our lives, brother, thank you for blessing me with the opportunity to see Brother Scotty doing well.
It’s good to see his face looking well. Thank you for Brother Jacob and what he’s going through in his home. That whatever purpose you have, the devil has tried to destroy him, but you have a purpose for him. You have a purpose for brother Shane. You have a purpose for Brother Ernest, who that truck almost derailed. But you have a purpose for him. Sarita. You have a purpose for her.
Everyone in this room, you have a purpose for the devil will come at us, man, because he’s a liar, he’s a destructor, he’s a deceiver. But let’s take these battles to Jesus Christ. Let’s take these thoughts to the word of God. Just like we wouldn’t accept a false teacher, don’t accept all of these thoughts and emotions. Take them to the Father and compare them to the word of God and allow God to win.
If you’re going through anxiety right now in Jesus mighty name, I just want to remind you that Jesus loves you. Just like with Martha, where he had compassion, right? And her brother, he has compassion over you. He knows everyone who’s hurt you. He knows everyone who’s done wrong to you. But today he wants you to know that he loves you and he cares for you. And he wants to hug you today and just remind you that, hey, he’s got your back.
All right? Just like you would love your son, he loves you just like you would love your pet. Imagine that if you don’t have a kid, he loves you more than you could ever imagine. The devil’s a liar. Don’t listen to him. Stop listening to him. Start listening to what God says about you in the scriptures. In Jesus’mighty name. I love you all so much. Amen, guys. I love you with all my heart, man.
You guys are good, good people. Please know that. Brother Natalia@gmail. com, if you need anything, I can pass that along to Chris and Heidi so you can get some support on a personal level. If you need personal support. And other than that, Brother Chris, Heidi, Ernest, Amy, you have anything to say before we go? I just want to say something really quick. I read this book that’s called Pagan Christianity, and it talks about what the first century church was like and how what we are seeing in the Western cultures today is totally different, made up through a lot of practices that were through the early centuries.
And what we’re having here is more like it’s, what it’s supposed to be. Because when we can come together like this, the Holy Spirit can minister to all of us on a personal level, and we can have that interaction. And there’s something that this will do that sitting in a big church will never do. We can become of one accord. And I promise you, brothers and sisters, the Lord is looking for that in the most hugest way.
So it’s awesome that we can work together, being of one accord before our Lord and Savior. Thank you. That’s beautiful. That’s beautiful. Brother Ernest, you want to say anything to close it out? And just want to let y’all know, brother Ernest and Amy and brother Chris and Heidi, they’re helping me with these Bible studies. There may be days where I have to work my job. Brother Chris and Heidi are going to be helping me out.
If I’m not here, Jesus is here. That’s all that matters. And we continue on edifying each other and helping each other, that’s the important part. You want to say anything else, Ernest? I just say may the Lord bless you and keep you. May his face shine upon you, his conscience fall upon you. May he establish you and give you peace. In the mighty name of Jesus Christ, I pray, amen.
Hey, and family, I have a song that I want to leave for you guys. I like this song because I don’t know, it’s just one of those songs that really blesses me whenever I hear it. So I’ll leave it playing for a little bit. If you’re there and you want to hear it, that’ll be awesome. Let me see if I can learn how to do this thing here.
I’m still learning, guys, so let’s see if I can figure this out. Hold on. And thanks for all the technological issues and the patience you had. Never underestimate the awesomeness of what happens when you’re worshiping Jesus Christ. It’s an awesome experience. All right, bear with me 1 second. All right. Let me see if this is going to work. Bam. Hopefully it’s going to play in a SEC. I don’t know if you all can hear it.
Can you all hear it? Okay. I’ll tell you why I like this song because it reminds me, man, who our God is, who our Savior is, and just our relationship with Him. All right. I don’t know if it’s going to play or not because this thing is kind of messing up, but I’m going to post a link on the chat regardless, all right? And this way you can hear it yourself.
I’m going to work on the technological issues so that next week we’re even better. But until then, let’s see. All right. Can you hear the song? I don’t know if you can hear the song because it’s not playing on my end. No. Okay. I put the song on there. Check it out if you have time. It’s a blessing. I love worship. And family, thank you for being here.
I’m going to go off with my family now and do some stuff, but just know that I’m grateful to you all. Thank you for taking of your time. Next Tuesday, we’ll be here as well. And Brother Naptalia@gmail. com, whatever you need in terms of counseling or anything like that. We can pass that along to Heidi and Chris for them to handle that. Love you guys. God bless. .
